I liked the warmth hibernation that this season brings. I find my mind turns toward the escapist joys of human interaction and the fun of meeting someone that is fun to be around. Being such a self centered neurotic fellow for so long that the idea that another person can make me feel good had completely left my consciousness. I had accepted that my life would be one of a certain sort of irreverent solitude. That I would placate my misery with the hedonism of technology and simple sensory delight. I recently challenged this sentiment and now feel a certain giddy joy common to the infatuation of my youth. Perhaps it is the novelty of telling the same joke to a new person or perhaps it is that she laughs and plays along. Still it was a fleeting experience that awoke in me a feeling that I had long thought extinguished permanently through my own stubborn sardonic view of existence. It’s nice to know that such quick bursts of uncontrived fun can still happen.