Month: December 2004

As the new year approaches it’s a time when I get a bit energized about getting some things started in my life. This usually passes as the cold dark Winter Months continue on and school and influenza chip away at my resolve and reduce me to my former unglory. I’m one of those “lost” people who was following a path of someone else’s desire for long enough to make him quite tired of life in general. The things I do enjoy the quirks and the “stuff” that makes me excited and puts a smile on my face come from making and talking about “mostly the latter at this point” pictures and videos. Writing stories and such is what I want to do developing an idea through the multiple facets available to one working on film. Music, light, acting, design, etc. You build a great team of people who know their field and let them loose guiding only enough to get a roughly definable concept then you mould that concept and you can make something that can be awesome. This is my inspiration.

Sort of on this same note I’ve recently been listening to archived internet radio broadcasts that feature MC Chris of [adult swim] fame. I read this guys bio and found it to be a haphazard one that seems to be making him happy at this point. He studied art and theatre at two of the best schools in the nation, ultimately getting a degree in screenwriting which he admits was not a good idea. Now after working with what can only be a crazy and fun group of people there in Atlanta he is embarking on pursuing his career as one of the most innovative rappers out there. His DJ John (gotta love the Utilitarianism there) mixes tracks from Aphex Twin and Blink 182, onto Pro-Tools, to make beats that Chris makes the funniest and also some of the most lyrical raps I’ve heard. The point is that this fellow is funny and cool he’s pursued a few avenues of interest that are similar to mine and is just now starting to make it “big.”

I guess that is some kind of inspiration to me since I have began to learn the technical stuff and have the screenwriting part taken care of (with a degree in Biology to boot). Now it just falls to me to have enough drive to make stuff that I think is fun and get past my fatalistic perfectionism that ultimately yields “good enough” crap to make some cool stuff and then get it out there in some ways that people will be able to see it and maybe there will be a place for me somewhere cool like [adult swim] or somewhere where it seems that innovation in commercial marketing and programming has the potential to be quite exciting.

Here’s the link to the archived radio program it’s Plug and Play with OCDJ (Chris brings up a possible reference to a popular FOX program in the name in his Dec 10th interview).

http://www.wfmu.org/playlists/OD

I liked the warmth hibernation that this season brings. I find my mind turns toward the escapist joys of human interaction and the fun of meeting someone that is fun to be around. Being such a self centered neurotic fellow for so long that the idea that another person can make me feel good had completely left my consciousness. I had accepted that my life would be one of a certain sort of irreverent solitude. That I would placate my misery with the hedonism of technology and simple sensory delight. I recently challenged this sentiment and now feel a certain giddy joy common to the infatuation of my youth. Perhaps it is the novelty of telling the same joke to a new person or perhaps it is that she laughs and plays along. Still it was a fleeting experience that awoke in me a feeling that I had long thought extinguished permanently through my own stubborn sardonic view of existence. It’s nice to know that such quick bursts of uncontrived fun can still happen.

I haven’t listened to any of my nine inch nails music for quite some time. Since I know the new one With Teeth should be out sometime in the next 6 months or so I figured it was time for a chronological review. I put on the first and second albums today and since it’s been a few years and I have acquired some musical training in that time I found that I could enjoy and criticize the music that much more. I also found myself in a somewhat nostalgic kick going through my own memories of a time when I listened to the music quite regularly anyhow I found it to be a good thing and quite cathartic a purging of atiquated philosophies and a reaffirmation of old ideas.